I’ve cried ALOT today. Like ALOT like I haven’t cried this much in a while. And guess what else? I’m feeling guilty right now because I made her feel bad because her gp isn’t doing well and I’m just adding more stuff and I’m being the “victim” her words not mine. But I’m the one that should be mad here right? I mean she hurt me bad last night but I’m the one feeling guilty. Maybe I feel guilty because I know she never will and it doesn’t effect her. She doesn’t care. I told her that she made me sad and she said sorry. Yes my apology that I want but then I said you know the thing is is that I don’t think you are. I think you just said it because you know its what you’re supposed to say. SHe says yeah well honestly I don’t get why I should be sorry. I was like yeah that’s what i thought. So yeah…I’ve been really sad today and cried alot and now evertime I lay down to try to go to sleep to feel better I can’t because I start thinking and it makes me want to cry again. I’m trying to be ok with her and pretend like everythings fine because I don’t like to fight with people but I’m really hurting deep down. I just need some help with all this. Actually what I need is a big hug but yeah…Have a good day everybody =)
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